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I want to make another DVD. But, this time…I want to write a story, script and then shoot it. I’m gonna be broke if I carry on with this plan of me. Damn.

When Alexander Bell invented the telephone, he believed his invention would make life easier. In modern day, communications has evolved. From children to the elderly, people have computers, cell phones, PDA, and much more. But, there are times when the telephone rings, and your heart stops. Sometimes, you don’t want to open an e-mail, mail, or package. In today’s world, one phone can make or break your life. From the RIAA or your younger sister, sometime, all a person needs is a phone call.

Three phone calls, three skipped heartbeats, two tears and a fake smile.

At 11:00 pm, last Thursday, I was getting ready for bed when I received the first of three phone calls. It was my aunt; she told me that my cousin mother in law had passed away. I could hardly care. Don’t get me wrong, I felt sorry, but I never met the woman. However, I did feel sorry for my cousin, both of her in laws passed away in 2 months. But, again, I could hardly care…I went to sleep.

At 5:30 am, Friday morning, the second phone call came. It was my uncle in India. My mom’s uncle has passed away. He was only 55. This one hurt more. I met him, I know his children, it was shame. It’s times like this when living in America is a curse. The distance is unbearable. You’re helpless. Living in one of the most powerful countries in the world, yet you can’t even hug a family member. Is this the life I want? Do I have a choice? I was shocked, I was afraid. If he could go at 55 then, what about my dad? It makes you think?

At 1:30 pm, Saturday afternoon, the third and final call came. It was Oanh. If you don’t know who she is, she is a good friend. She called me and when I answered, she said, “I’m your worst nightmare.” What she didn’t know was, it really was. I wasn’t myself. All I could think about was people I knew, burying their parents at my age and younger. The toughest lost is of a child, and then of a parent. But, what if it’s a loss or a parent while you’re a child or rather, in my case, in need of their support and guidance. She called me twice. Both times, I tried to sound happy, but I wasn’t. My heart was skipping beats; my voice had the sound of fear. Oanh, if you’re reading this, I’m sorry if I sounded…mean. It was the first time I didn’t laugh or smile after talking to her.

Something I once heard stood out over the past few days. “Life’s greatest lessons are often the most painful.” With all these events, I think I found that flame I’ve been looking for. I was lost, confused, and broken. But, now I believe I found that flame to shine a light on the path to my future, a flame to relight that passion I’ve been looking for.

And with that note, I just want to say one last thing.

Just, remember your never alone,

Never.

Hey there!

It’s been a while, no? Sorry about that, I’ve been so busy that I starting to forget my own name. Okay, that maybe a lie, but I have been busy! A lot has happened since we last spoke. No…really, no joke. You want to know? Of course you do, silly me. Okay, let’s get started then…shall we?

The past month or so, Zach and I have been working on Magic/Mirror, my final project for my English class. It’s a documentary/special on magic. woo! Boy, did we do some crazy things during filming. There were card tricks, coin tricks, carny magic and so much more. Too bad no of you will EVER see it. Sorry. I don’t want to be sued. But, it was fun. If you do see it, yea…we were stupid. But, now that’s over. My third film is done. Wow…3 films in 7 months. Okay, yea…two of them were only 10 mins and I didn’t edit one of them, but still!! Want a preview? Here you go!

Yea, we know it’s a silly picture of Zach, but it works so well! It runs over an hour in change! AND THATS WITHOUT ANY OF THE SPECIAL FEATURES, WHICH RUN LONGER THAN THE MOVIE! So long in fact, that we’ve made it a 2 disc special collectors edition. (That was stolen from Zach). So, that project has come to a close. Zach has said “Lets hope we can build up the motivation to make a sequel, or possibly a series of shorter shows. I think we could really do the topic justice.” It’s possible. However, if we were to do a sequel or a series, we need to have our own presentations, so maybe we can release it, and a better camera, just because I want a new camera.

Speaking of releasing a product, tonight marks the beginning of a new project of mine. The Rice Bowl Journals Podcast! Hopefully, it will be successful.

Well, that’s it for now, I gotta Podcast and study for finals. Wish me luck!